ANSWER: We have all lost our lives to Satan, which is why Jesus had to come and literally buy us back or redeem us (Galatians 3:13). Christ specifically bought us back from the devil. God, through Christ, owns us now and not the devil.
31. Because of this, I say to you, every sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven to men except the blasphemy against the Holy Spirit; that shall not be forgiven to men. 32. And whoever speaks a word against the Son of man, it shall be forgiven him; but whoever speaks against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, neither in this age nor in the coming age (Matthew 12:31 - 32, HBFV throughout)
The one that is not forgiven is commonly referred to as the unpardonable sin. Basically, this sin is unpardonable (not forgiven) because a person WILLFULLY (and not out of weakness or deception which we can all fall prey to) REFUSES to ask for a pardon!
Our heavenly Father wants to save everyone (1Timothy 2:4). The only question is how much pain do we want to go through before we decide to believe him and not the devil. In Hebrews 12 Paul says God, as a loving Father, corrects every person He works with and considers one of his spiritual children.
|5. And you have already forgotten the admonition that He addresses to you as to sons: "My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord, nor grow weary of being reproved by Him; 6. For whom the Lord loves He chastens, and He severely disciplines every son whom He receives." 7. If you endure chastening, God is dealing with you as a Father with His sons. For who is the son whom the Father does not chasten? (Hebrews 12:5 - 7)|
Satan's will is to have you think how bad you are and to believe the Eternal does not love you. No matter how sinful you are God ALWAYS loves you and will allow you to go through as much suffering as is necessary to finally believe Him and not His adversary. He wants us to repent (Acts 2:38), which means to change our mind from seeking the will of the devil (e.g. which is to NOT forgive yourself after you have been forgiven) to His will.
In his Sermon on the Mount, Jesus said that if we ask the Father for something (according to His perfect love and will) He will give it to us.
'Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened' (Matthew 7:7 - 8)
It is God's will that we ask for forgiveness. Although He knows we are weak and sometimes give in to the temptations and deceptions of sin, He promises to ALWAYS forgive is we ask. And he also promises to eventually remove all traces of sin within us.
9. If we confess our own sins, He is faithful and righteous, to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1John 1:9).
When you pray, ask Him to help you believe Him and accept His forgiveness no matter how bad you think your sins are. Belief (faith) in God can lead you to repentance.